I started looking at the different characteristics of voices, and people I think sometimes wonder why I manage to do that and I think it’s because, even though I, I wasn’t involved in the church for years and years and years, I still remember that one of the things in church that we did was that we looked at the characteristics of God and that each part of the Trinity, if you believe in the Trinity, had different characteristics and so I started using that stuff on my voices, that my voices had different characteristics that some were male, some were female, some were positive, some were negative, some were abusive, some were non-abusive, some were advisory, some were commanding and I started looking at those characteristics and I started breaking them down, and that formulated I guess the, the start of the Working with Voices workbook started then, and, you know, and it didn’t come out till much later but that’s when it really started. So then I had I don’t know if it’s helpful to like go into the delusions that it created, just trying to figure out what was happening. And then a, you know, a bit later I actually started hearing them inside my head. This thing thinks for itself, and tries to trip you up and play games with you, every step of the way. Psychiatrists will tell you that it’s just your own thoughts, but you know, I don’t buy that at all. But it’s actually a, an entity with its own thoughts. They’re I mean my frame of reference now that it’s another facet of my soul that’s doing it. So … So yes, then I’d start hearing them from various electronic devices, you know, if there was a, say a smoke alarm in the corner of the room, they’d emanate from there. Because obviously you’ve got no concept that it’s coming from inside your head because it’s too realistic. Where is it coming from? Who’s doing it to me? So I had like ten years of that, you know, and it’s and it’s just your mind trying to ration and reason with how, where’s it coming from. So it’s just a, process of reasoning how, you know, how am I hearing these things. And then you know, as things got worse and worse I’d hear them on the phone when I was speaking to friends, family on the phone, in the background which led me to believe that things were being done electronically. And when you don’t know that this is what’s happening, you’re completely taken in and think these people are abusing you. That’s how they started, so I always thought they, if and voices very clever they will take on the form of another person’s voice so it will appear as it’s coming from that person. To start with they were always outside, so if I was in a building I could hear them outside the window. Psychosis Hearing voices, seeing things, and unusual beliefs
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